litfili week7

Sacrificing for someone is a heroic deed. But what if it is not appreciated?
I once felt somehow that way before when i was misunderstood. back then i was the good girl, i follow instructions, listened to my parents. but for some reason, i just can't feel the attention that i want. what thought before that everything was about my older brother. how they asks him if he needed anything which they don't do that to me. They asks him if he needed more of his clothes, they don't do that to me. they asks him if he needs money, which my parents never asked me those things. I hated them for that moment. figuring out what did i do wrong. i never failed in my subjects. i am always at home before curfew. i clean (if i have time) things in the house. and so i got more angry to myself. not to them anymore to myself. because i must have done something wrong for them not to notice what i'd do so they would praise my good work.

i continued doing those things up until i was in college. i realized that, their reason for them no asking me of what i want. its because i asked/tell them if i could buy that,this, those things. They actually recognized my little deeds because they buy what i ask for sometimes with no hesitations.

In the story Generations by Ninotchka Rosca, the girl could not take it anymore, she killed her own father because even though she had protected and gave her virginity to the soldiers, still the father did not recognized what her daughter had done for him.

litfili week6

who could have thought that every single one of us (humans) wants a happy ending to some point in our lives. picture this: in front of you is the person whom you would want to share the rest of your life in a very quiet place where the priest, your relatives and the the relatives of the person you love surrounds the both of you and suddenly stabs your hand just because he thinks it's cool. not the kind of happy ending i was hoping for

but with that simple kind of thing that just disturbed your day in some way, what have you realized?
that not anyone could have a happy ending? (maybe, but no it's not my point)
that we never see the real attitude of the person unless you are married? ( no)


that we can never actually trust a stranger.( or thats what i think? )
everybody can agree and we all know that we must never trust a stranger but we are doing it.
what is the connection?
i'm talking bout the girlfriends/boyfriends who can become your wife/husband in time.

it is true that at the first time you meet with him/her, you don't know each other unless you talk with that person. and as you talk and share ideas and experiences. you fall inlove and blah blah. and live happily ever after.
like the spinster, in the story, Tale of the spinster and peter pan by Cristina Hidalgo, she trusted peter pan ( young man) with her feelings.the spinster was a writer of romance novels and this young man perform in a bar where she hangs out most of her time. for once in her boring life. she gave in to something she has never done before, to fall inlove. she already visualizes what would come next in their 'adventures' together which in reality, does not exist. she only thought of the happy things that they could together which again, not happening. and when the climax of her happy ending was actually happening ( the young man talked to the spinster) she was disappointed to know that he was not what she thinks he is.

life is really full of surprises. may it be a happy moment or just one of the nightmares you don't even want to know in the first place.

close up

picked out from their ordinary life to a crazier ( my ) world.







MARENIE:
-who loves her family
-who loves starshine
-who's the tall one ( mayabang!)
-who never gets tired of bullying BONG (girl in long sleeves)
-who likes skittles, the sour ones
-who's fave movie is "a walk to remember"
-who collects cows (wierd)
-who watches one tree hill and marimar
-who is very innocent
-who acts like its not her age
-who always wear skin
-who figured out that she loves java chip frap of starbucks
-who is proud of us


MJOY:
-who is the white one
-who has a new chamchung
-who has gorgeous hair
-who is kinda tall ( ISA PANG MAYABANG!)
-who has a unique laugh
-who sometimes talks on her own
-who has her own laftof
-who loves elmo
-who loves st.andes
-who loves white chocolate mocha.hot.
-who lots of havas
-who has asthma
-who is our " lady thug" wahaha








BONG:
-who is afraid of being alone
-who is always talking
-who never stops talking
-who always has a story to tell
-who barely communicates with others
-who rarely wears skin
-who sometimes hates the world when her day did not end how she planned it
-who loves "josh"
-who loves ize
-who has my boxers
-who loves GG, one tree hill and rosalinda
-who knows the lines of every character in the movie mean girls
-who eats roasted honey peanuts ( EEW!)
-who loves green tea frap
-who loves B.
-who can't deny that she loves B.

these aint your normal crowd. maybe you got the idea of your crowd but with them around you are just crazy enough to even survive. 0_O

summer fiasco

i told you this would be a hobby. AWESOME!












as much as we enjoyed modeling for ourr photographer sammy so.. we had so much fun in doing this photoshoot. not only we had crazy ideas on how our photos would look like but the free time that we had put to good use. crazy. sammy so edited these pictures too.

litfili week5

a girl was walkin in their village.she was about to meet her friend near the clubhouse to go to church.it was almost 5.30pm in the afternoon where children go biking and running down the streets. as she was minding her own kind of thaang. she noticed the car passed by her turn around and stopped. it was wierd for her but she kept on walking thinking it was nothing.

30yr.old-man:ms! ms! ms!

and the girl did not give any attention to the man thinking she is not the one being called.

30yr.old-man:ms! ms! pwede makipag kilala?

the girl just smiled and continued walking thinking he would go away.

30yr.old-man: ms, pwede bang makipagkilala, ako si (and he said his name) eh ikaw? anong pangalan mo?
the girl: po? (and she said her name) po..
30yr.old-man: pwede ko ba mahingi number mo?
the girl: magagalit po kasi mama ko, share po kasi kami sa phone na to (not!)
30yr.old-man: talaga lng? sige tetext lang kita pag nakita kitang lumabas sa bahay niyo. malapit lang ako doon sa bahay niyo eh.
the girl: magagalit po kasi talaga mama ko eh.

then he touched her in her shoulders,

30yr.old-man: ms, pwede pa tayong mag-usap nang hindi naglalakad?
the girl: po? may ka meet po kasi ako, inaantay na po niya ako.
30yr.old-man: hatid na kita, san ka ba pupunta? hatid na kita.
the girl:po? hindi na po, may ksama po kasi ako.

because the girl kept on walking, she was near the clubhouse and so far away from his car.
she was very scared when the man touched her shoulders. and he touched her again.

30yr.old-man: sige na, ihatid na kita sa pupuntahan mo.
the girl:hindi na po, may kasama po kasi ako.
30yr.old-man: sige na, ayaw mo naman bigay number mo, hatid na nga lng kita.

the girl was walking faster.

the girl: wag na po. may kasama po kasi ako, inaantay na po niya ako.
30yr.old-man: sige, malayo na ko sa kotse ko,.

the girl did not look back at the man again. after the man left she ran in tears.and hid on inner streets so the man would not see her again. as she was walkin towards her friend, she cried even more because she never thought that she could get out of that conversation.


stories like these and other contemporary stories are somewhat based true to their lives. because they wrote the stories in such detail that only people involved in the situation would know. issues that are very important to those involved but neglected by others. The story Magnificence by Estrella Aflon, she maybe not the girl in the story, but she knows from her heart how the girl feels about the situation. the writer thought of something her audience would understand even when she used a lot of symbols to express deeper thoughts. and like the story Summer Solstice by Nick Joaquin, he defined women as someone who should not be underestimated by anyone.


unlike canon stories, they are issues but less important to the society because it involves only a couple. about their issues and how they solve it as grown-ups. Of how guys cheat to their wives and girlfriends. on how they manage to get away with it.
like in the story Games by Noelle De Jesus, the woman in the story already knows that her partner is cheating on her that is why it is okay for her to play games with him. she already know and she just want to catch him by his words.

it is actually, kind of fulfilling when you catch somebody doing a crime. but how do you really feel about it? are you actually happy?

litfili week4

They say that we girls who live in provinces are more like maria clara,

"mahinhin, mapagmahal, magalang" because they all thought that civilization only lies at
Metro Manila. they never realized that every provinces
has its own civilization, even more civilized.
It is true, but not all of the women. many factors are considered of why women in the Philippines are becoming liberated unlike women of the past. Women in the past do as to what the men would want them to do because they believe without these men, they can't live on their own. women in the past rarely be seen crazy( meaning drunk, out at night etc.). and these women have a common attitude, mahinhin. not all but majority of them.

at the story, LOVE in the cornhusks by Aida Rivera-Ford, Tinang followed her destiny, not to be with Amado. She never gave in too much of her love, because she knows it will only hurt her. and like Pilar too, at the story,the CORRAL by Edith Tiempo. She knows what makes her happy and what is the right thing to do. never give in easily.

But what happen to these women? not enough genes to pass it to the next generation?

slowly, they changed into something so surprising. they became more LIBERATED. had their own decisions unlike the women in the past. and they can now live on their own even though without men in their life. Although it is good that they don't depend much on men. still they should keep their minds onto their appearance and what would others think of them .

but hey, still we PINAY GIRLS ROCK!

pashion

it started out as a requirement, now i think this would be a hobby.ö

mr.krabs

so yummy..*sigh*
i just have to share it to the world.
that i love seafoods..
feeling ko i can eat a lot
of it, without getting fat. ö

surprise pioli.ö

does anybody know that i love surprises?
i love it how i'm surprised, GULAT tlga.
all you can hear from me is , toooooot, toot
,toooooot ka, i hate you,toot tlga, tooot,
toot tlga, toot and amna shout
real loud depending on how surprised i am.

i was upstairs waiting for my kuya to give my
phone back( ksi he was
talikng kay papa, *ding* there was a doorbell,
at first i thought, "ngpapaload" lng. so i did not
make pancin of it,

"sam, ikaw na nga lng, sulat eh" nanny said,
ako naman, i made baba the downstairs.
and oh my LBC. i was thinkin, "ngkamali ba ko
ng lagay ng address " .. my hands were shakin,
ngkamali pa ako ng kung saan pipirma,
and i think he heard me i said,
"toot, toooooot tlga. and OMG. i was
so surprised. ö

litfili week 3

it's a tradition every morning to have "pandesal" in our hapag for breakfast. some of the people just can't go on with their day without eating one. i think we all have experienced buying and waiting for these oh so delicious pastry. waiting for it to be cooked, being with a lot of people u dnt know or u do know. standing, and being bugged by flies flying around your face, or a mosquito enjoyin, suckin your blood. or just plainly sitting down on a rock. just like a relationship, it's either you do something to get it fast or just wait and in the end everything will be just like how you want it.


In case you don't know HHWWSS or" Holding Hands While Walking at may pa Sway Sway pa" is everywhere. so does this mean they are in a relationship? of course,you don't go holding hands with someone if you don't like them.

talkin bout relationships, people often neglect this simple recognition of actually owning someone or being owned by someone. why? because they think that they can do better with or without the person and ending up going back to that person again that's why there's is " love is sweeter the second time around". but sometimes that is just not the case.

sometimes we take advantage of what we have now and blame ourselves later for not taking the relationship seriously. that we should have done this, that. but what we really want is just the love that we are all craving for. we should not overthink things that " i know this already, he will just hurt me" or " i don't want to be hurt again, i'll stay single" it's not that it is not okay to have someone with but, it is much better and be happier. That someone laughs with you not laughs at you, someone who will see the problem just like how you forsee them. these simple things creates a bond until death do them part.